Do you remember these two words? They were the things that you said to me before you walked away. They were the things that shattered me into pieces; drove me to almost losing my sanity. They were the things that made me cry. It was you, saying ‘the end’.
Good stories in books was ended by the same two words. You said not-so-good stories doesn’t have endings, they have continuations. You knew it, I know, because you’re a writer. You wrote our love story in the stars. Telling me that it will never end, will never reach its end. Because our love, according to you, is continual, infinite, beyond the universe. Now I know why.
Was there a place beyond the universe? I wanted to go there. Who knows? You might be waiting for me in that place, giving me the chance to walk on my own, testing me if I could make it on time. Mind you baby, I’ve already started the long run.
I tripped and fell many times into rough roads. Made my way into broken bridges. Walked pass through impossible humps. Swam across deep rivers. And I’m feeling a little tired my sweet, because the journey is not so easy. But I made a promise haven’t I? I will search for you through a thousand world and ten thousand times. I have to smile at that. You knew I’m not good at quoting but definitely, it means the same as what the line in the movie (47 Ronin, ring a bell?) had shown.
I miss you darling. I miss the sound of your voice and the feeling of your lips against mine. I miss your laugh and the way you smile. I miss the bouquet of roses and sweet candlelit dinners. I miss being your girlfriend. Do you feel the same? I wished so. Because I’m not that certain towards your feelings. Tell me baby, did you forgot me already? I’m having a hard time forgetting you. Please come back.
I still remember the first line you told me, you know? Hey. That was your way of starting a conversation with me. And then you start to blabber. And then you’ll make your way. And the you’ll flutter your eyes so cute it charmed me all the way out. Remember those? That’s how you got me.
Where are you? Am I still too far? Or just a few more step and I will reach you soon enough? Wait okay? Don’t look around searching for someone you think would make you happy. Baby, I’m the only one who can make you happy endlessly. Don’t worry, I think, I’m near. Please don’t get tired of waiting. I promised. I’m near.
There was this cliche road in front love. Which direction should I take in my love? Will you be waiting at the end of the road I’m going to choose? Baby, I’m glad. I’m taking this smooth one. I told you, I’m a little tired of the other road. You knew what I mean when I say little, right?
I hope to meet you soon my love. I’m starting a new journey for the both of us. I want to live happily, I don’t want an ever after with you though. It’s infinitely and continual, just like what you said. Beyond the universe.
Will you allow me, my darling to rewrite our not-so-good story to turn into good one? And like the good stories that you had written, even if our beginning is not as pleasant as it is, our story will end just the way I started this letter. Well, I hope so.